Journey to the unknown..
I cant sleep so i came blogging..hiaz..i having Mr and Miss ITE later a Macperson ITE and here am i,without a wink,Blogging..lolx.Perhaps, my mind is telling to wake up, to do some searching.How i ended up like this,which road had i cross that made me stranded here.I had thought over it..with agzzillion things in my mind,i still manage to thought back of my past dreams and goals.I have this dream , to be an officer in the SAF, in a unit called the " Commandos. " I found it. I also thought of the time where things isnt so complicated.My family,i know i love them deeply,and i know they do love me deeply too. But everytime i saw them, there will be a no-holds-barred quarrel.I really miss having a laugh or two with them.Going out as a family is a norm for me in the past..but not now..going out with them will only make me feel akward.Being human, theres only so much we can do.Im not in the " league of extra ordinary man." So i wont expect miracles.Samuel,i know what you are going through..we are almost the same here..lolx..the only difference being the surname..lolx..so im going to pat on your back one day and say" we are in this same boat together bro.." lolx..My chalet is starting today too..going to be 18 soon..on the 27th and my long time bro .. on the 29th. I hope a change of age will make me more aware of my surroundings and make me more mature then before.I dream..i wish..i hope..i wonder..As the saying goes.." If you dont dream, you are not living." How true is that?Guys.. i need answer on this..As far as i know..everything that has happen in this world , all the technological advances and the 3G world all started with a dream.Anyone wants to prove me wrong on this?Feel free...Till then..ADIOUS AMIGO..
Lost..!!!!
Ok..i am really in real need of help here..i let the cat out of the bag.I am really in need of some personal advised here.. i am really lost in my pursuit of my dreams.. i have lost my direction in life..literally.. i dont have the will to carry on..my legs are weak at the knees.. i am no strenght to walk a mile more..i guess i should resign to fate..or should i ? I have lost interest in my life..just swaying from left to right..where the wind blows, i will just follow suit..i have lost the determination in me to push myself up when i fall.Long gone are the days where i will push myself to the limits.Long gone are the days where i will get up and say " Its a brand new day.Just go for it. " I have lost all motivation in me.SOS!! The signal is clear.The bay isnt near,nor is the rear.Provided a holy light and a guardian angel is being send from above, i dout there is any hope for me.I need a few days of peace to think things through, a few days of silent and immense concentration would do me some good.And to think my birthday is coming right up,this isnt a really good sign for me.Why must i be lost at such a critical time? Why must i be missing the good things in life?Question had already been answered..again and again.My skull is made of a pretty good material..lolx.Countless knocking of it yield no effect..lolx. If only i can provide the material of my skull to NASA or LOCKHEED MARTIN, i would save lots of human lives..lolx.. and made much money in return too..lolx.How about that? "Gerald's INDESTRUCTBALE solids." LOLX!! The hardest material the world has ever encountered,even titanium is nothing..lolx.Well,jokes aside,my life really is sailing of course now.There is no captian on board to steer the ship on course.My hero lance armstrong surely isnt as much as a whimp as i am now.I really wonder where he gets his undying determination from.And he has this aura to affect everyone around him,like how he did to his TOUR DE FRANCE team mates.Recently retired, his team just cant cope without him..He is their ship captian,their inspiration and motivator.Without him, they are in shambles.I need someone like that,and i want to emulate him as a person.But before that i need someone like him , close to me , and guide me back to the shore,safe and sound.Only then i can start all over again.Only then i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.Please , i need THAT RAY OF LIGHT!!!!!Being interested in the arts, i had pen a poem myself to sum my life up..im a novice..so just bare with the childish rythm and lack of depth.
" Stealing is a crime they say,in time it shall be paid.
Come to think of it ,in a way, doesnt in sway?
In life you played,with nothing in placed.
Every single hype and type,a chance to make it right.
No, i grabbed nor hype and type,leaving me alone to fight.
Grab the chance,sounds alright.
But to many,it isnt right.
Even with the greatest might, i never denied
Things isnt going to be alright,within the forthnight. "
Well..end of blogging for now..feeling down..and out..i hope it does not last long..
Ren yi hi feng ping lang jing..
Well..another new post..finally went back to school today.After missing one week of school..i feel kind of rusty..and my first day back came with a surprise indeed..AUTOCAD TEST!! lolx.. so no choice had to do.but i did not manage to complete it though.i did not know how to do and my teacher is provoking me by just pointing at the screen and saying " like that lor.. aiyo..". She must had have very high hopes on me,thought that i was her top student and expect me to decheiper what she just said..so imagine my blood temperature when she did not even allow my friend to help me..if 100 degrees is the boiling point, i have easily defeated that today..way defeated it.So being civilised, i just print my work, half way done, and handed it up to her . Even before leaving she said " just do like that what.. " . That hit the nail in the coffin. I was way above boiling point and there she is , rubbing salt into the wound.Usually , i would have bombarded her back with lots of vuglarties, but after not sleeping the previous night, i let my sleepiness do the talking and walk out without shooting her back in the ass.lolx.So legally, i am civilised for a day.Today is such a taxing day, countless problems, limited solutions.Looking forward to this saturday..MR and Miss..lolx.. miss my BRRuuUUDDaaaSS!! lolx.. Really,really a bunch of crappy bunch..lolx.Before i leave,as usual,i will be leaving u guys with a qoute.. lolx..heres todays qoute " The human capacity to fight back will always astonish doctors and philosophers. It seems, indeed, that there are no circumstances so bad and no obstacles so big that man cannot conquer them." - Jean Tetreau
Still turning...
Well..back again.Too bad guys,heres the bad news..i got to the top 15 of this year mr and miss ITE.lucky? you bet. haha. There must be some mistake, i mean look at my face, guys!! It looks like the moon, haha. Maybe , even worst.. lolx. Hey listen up guys, its true.. and i got to know a bunch of whacky friends alone the way as well..lolx. we call ourselves BRUUUDAA!! lolx.. One of the highpoints in my ITE life, getting to know those guys and girls in the top 15. No, they arent stuck up, neither are they proud... they are just out to have fun,pure fun.lolx.Doing those catwalks and photoshoots are so much easier as encouragement can always be heard from them.lolx..thanks guys.We even had birthday celebration in between our trainings..lolx.. the latest being Amywhite,lolx,its a guys name Bruudaa!!lolx. He is interested in Winnie from this year EXCO(MnM)..haha..but she kept avoiding him.Hiaz,pity Amywhite..He dont look good this days..lolx.The finals is being held at downtown east , hope to do well in front of those audiences.Yah, and Man Utd won 5-1 today at Old Trafford today.What a good start for the Red Devils.Keep the momenthum going boys,and we are going to kick Chelsea ass at the end of this season.Before i logged off and finish the day with a deep slumber,i would like to leave you guys with this qoute " The man who has no imagination has no wings. " From the greatest boxer the world has ever known, Muhamad Ali . This qoute left me in a fixed, with alot of pondering. If its you , will you be the same?
My Life revolving....
Okok.. to start off my second entry after my first "make myself clear" entry , i am currently at studying at ITE tampines.. oh well.. that three letter word makes me move a rather big step back... ITE ... why i end up here is a rather big question mark haha.. alright truth behold.. i never studied for my big Os . whose to blame? well.. myself..haha alot of nasty stuffs had been said about ITE,especially the students and the condusivness of that place.Let me shed some light of the real ITE.Firstly,students there is not as bad as what the outside world thought of..although there will be a few black sheeps here and there..i mean there will only be a few white sheep here and there..lolx..so it is actually what the outside world thought it is..BUT.. not as bad.. Secondly,the condusivnesss of that place would be rated N9 at my work place.. In short..it fails very badly in that area.Even an " Condusivness Makeover" will never change that damn place..you wont be able to study there.Swear.Although there are study corners around, it has never occured to me that it is a study corner as all i saw there were people sleeping.They should change it to " Sleeping corner ". For gods sake,dont they know simple english ? But anyway even if they do, they will never be bothered because as far as i know, 90% of the population are self-centred. As the chinese proverb goes " ren bu wei zi , tian zhu di mie " . They truly live up to that proverb..lolx. See, even ITE students uphold some kind of morals that were been pass down.. Thirdly, ITE is fun.. INDEED!! lolx.. u plan ur own schduled, your own timing for school, what u like to study etc.. lolx.. they truly practice human rights...lolx.No one will force you to do things against your will.. how cool is that?lolx..But there are fun times too la..not to mention "Mr and Miss 2006" lolx.. for this i will update you guys on my next blog.Till then,live your live to the fullest for you will never know what will happen tommorow Get what i mean Guys?lolx
Testing this site...its been a long time since i started blogging again... started when i was in sec 2 .. but found no time to to blog..since now i have the time , i started blogging again..*ATTENTION* what ever that is written in this blog is MY own OPINION only and meant no harm or offence to anyone or anything out in this beautiful planet.It is how i view my life and things around me from MY POINT OF VIEW. If there is anything that is offensive , please kindly tag and i will bring it down.. it wont be nice to have the cops chasing after my ass because of my own opinion.
