One more week to my Passing Out Parade. I can't wait for my jungle hat, the sweat and blood which requires me to have it, shall remain one of my most defining moments in life.
I passed my Standard Obstacle Course with a better timing then I expected, got a gold for my IPPT and got through the Basic Airborne Selection trial, with a marksmanship to boot.
It has been hell of a week, the end was satisfying.
"If you who are growing up do not understand that you've got to defend this country, then I say in the end we will lose."
Went drinking with my Buds last night. Thanks for being there when I always needed you guys.
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I'm Lucifer, Prince of darkness, Fallen angel, bringer of light, Ruler of hell, Father of lies, Tempter of mankind, Prince of this world.
Went running the Army Half Marathon in the morning. Now I'm sitting at home, rotting in front of my desktop thinking about my life, past, present and future.
My past, though amazing, has its short comings too. Be it in school work, love life or friends, they made up my life till we embark on our own different journey after our teenage years. The most memorable time of my life belongs here. Fact.
My present, arguments that will mould me into my future shall stand. But I'm caught in webs of self-punishing thoughts, effectively bringing my self-confidence to an all time low. Maybe I'm too demanding on myself or I'm still very much loss in many aspects of my life. Transition from a teen was much more difficult to fathom, though I think I know the reason for being so loss. Laughing all day looking happy may help, but I still can't lie to myself that I wasn't. Kudos to my small precious circle of friends that light up my life anytime, anywhere. I always believe having one true friend is enough for us, I'm thankful I have a bunch of them, I'm really thankful.
My future, depending on how fast I start to really stand up and be counted, it will remain like this for now. Having plans for my future which will not materialise anytime soon. Dreams, though far-fetch, hoping I could full-fill them. I'm scared of my future, I really do. I never dare face it, from young till now. I'm a clam, very much one.
Sorry for my rantings. The reason why I hate being alone at home. It makes my mind go wild, past failures, victories and many, many other thoughts came floating back. Yuan Jie said " You only live life once , if you live it right , once is enough." But I have my own thoughts " I wish I was special, you're so fucking special. But I'm creep, I'm a weirdo, what the hell am I doing here?" I guess the one above task me with a task, to change from a creep, a weirdo to someone special, radiant to light up someone's else life. But, it's too heavy for my shoulder to carry. Maybe it's not now but later in my life. Right, I will wait for that day for something or someone to show me the way, to live life it should be live. The catalyst to my revival, I was hoping, will appear soon.
8 days of outfield camp No. 4 will always be damp Throwing grenades and shooting rounds Leopard crawling on the ground
Trying our best to blend into the environment Letting our instructors pass out the judgement Tests and practicals will be conducted Rifles in the night will be abducted
Every meal will be combat ration This is how we are fed by our nation Another weekend will be burned For Honour & Glory must be earned
Bravo Coy Platoon 1 PTP batch
Bravo Coy Platoon 1
We are the reason hostile forces are afraid of the dark
For Honour & Glory
Commando!!
I'm Lucifer, Prince of darkness, Fallen angel, bringer of light, Ruler of hell, Father of lies, Tempter of mankind, Prince of this world.
Fighting soldiers from the sky, fearless men who jump and fight
Men who mean just what they say, courageous men of the Red Beret
Silver wings upon their chest, these are men of Sinagore's best
Hundred men were test today, only few win the Red Beret
Train to live off natures land, train to combat hand to hand
Men who fight by night and day, Courageous men of the Red Beret
Silver wings upon their chest, these are men of Sinagore's best
Hundred men were test today, only few win the Red Beret
Back at home a young wife waits, her Red Beret has met his fate
He has died for those oppressed, leaving her this last request
Put silver wings on my son's chest, make him one of Singapore's best
He'll be a man they'll test one day, have him win the Red Beret
I'm Lucifer, Prince of darkness, Fallen angel, bringer of light, Ruler of hell, Father of lies, Tempter of mankind, Prince of this world.
Behold the name, bow before it.
G.L
the author
Gerald Lucifer Chew
terrorblade_shinobi@hotmail.com
22 this year
27/8/88
Single/attached
Was taught promises were lies ITE Tampines MEED year 2
Virgo
View lance armstrong as his hero
Death before dishonor Manager of the big letter " M " Bartender at STJ
Commando
His Source Of Life
His Brothers
Volleyball
Basketball
Mahjong
Prawning
Mobile Phone
Chivas
Martell VSOP
Hennessy VSOP
Heineken
Carlsberg
His wants
The truth behind "Priory of Sion"
Wants the truth of the Holy Grail
To be happy
Learn to love again
Carefree
Learn piano
More books Get out of ITE
To be a lawyer
