Lost..!!!!
Ok..i am really in real need of help here..i let the cat out of the bag.I am really in need of some personal advised here.. i am really lost in my pursuit of my dreams.. i have lost my direction in life..literally.. i dont have the will to carry on..my legs are weak at the knees.. i am no strenght to walk a mile more..i guess i should resign to fate..or should i ? I have lost interest in my life..just swaying from left to right..where the wind blows, i will just follow suit..i have lost the determination in me to push myself up when i fall.Long gone are the days where i will push myself to the limits.Long gone are the days where i will get up and say " Its a brand new day.Just go for it. " I have lost all motivation in me.SOS!! The signal is clear.The bay isnt near,nor is the rear.Provided a holy light and a guardian angel is being send from above, i dout there is any hope for me.I need a few days of peace to think things through, a few days of silent and immense concentration would do me some good.And to think my birthday is coming right up,this isnt a really good sign for me.Why must i be lost at such a critical time? Why must i be missing the good things in life?Question had already been answered..again and again.My skull is made of a pretty good material..lolx.Countless knocking of it yield no effect..lolx. If only i can provide the material of my skull to NASA or LOCKHEED MARTIN, i would save lots of human lives..lolx.. and made much money in return too..lolx.How about that? "Gerald's INDESTRUCTBALE solids." LOLX!! The hardest material the world has ever encountered,even titanium is nothing..lolx.Well,jokes aside,my life really is sailing of course now.There is no captian on board to steer the ship on course.My hero lance armstrong surely isnt as much as a whimp as i am now.I really wonder where he gets his undying determination from.And he has this aura to affect everyone around him,like how he did to his TOUR DE FRANCE team mates.Recently retired, his team just cant cope without him..He is their ship captian,their inspiration and motivator.Without him, they are in shambles.I need someone like that,and i want to emulate him as a person.But before that i need someone like him , close to me , and guide me back to the shore,safe and sound.Only then i can start all over again.Only then i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.Please , i need THAT RAY OF LIGHT!!!!!Being interested in the arts, i had pen a poem myself to sum my life up..im a novice..so just bare with the childish rythm and lack of depth.
" Stealing is a crime they say,in time it shall be paid.
Come to think of it ,in a way, doesnt in sway?
In life you played,with nothing in placed.
Every single hype and type,a chance to make it right.
No, i grabbed nor hype and type,leaving me alone to fight.
Grab the chance,sounds alright.
But to many,it isnt right.
Even with the greatest might, i never denied
Things isnt going to be alright,within the forthnight. "
Well..end of blogging for now..feeling down..and out..i hope it does not last long..
