Memories.............
I knew your decision is going to hurt me.I knew that we are not meant to be.But i have always been faithfully, hoping and wishing that fate will change. I never wanted to leave you , i want to be there for you. Through thick and thin , good times and bad times . I don't know how to explain in words , neither do i know how to draw it out . But i do know one thing , life is never going to be the same without you . Memories of you will be kept deep down in my heart , sealed and locked away in a special place .
so lonely in the night , without you to hold me tight.i wanna hold you closer , baby hold me closer.my life would mean nothing, without the joy u bring.to me, there will never be someone like you.you are like a dream that became reality , then back to a dream again.
i will give up everything to hold that hand again.
There are somethings in this world that money can't buy.The love of someone you treasure.You meant the world to me.Now all i have are photos as memories.I'm devastated. ='(
They say time heal all wounds.Let's see if it's the truth.For me , this wound is never going to heal.It will be , if , she comes back into my life.
It's all because of you
I'm feelin' sad and blueY
ou went away
Now my life is just a rainy day
And I love you so
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely
Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Another love so true
That once turned all my grey skys blue
But you disappeared
Now my eyes are filled with tear
And I'm wishing you were here with me
Soaked with love
All my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone
I just don't know what to do
If only you were here
You wash away my tear
The sun would shine
And once again you'll be me mine oh mi-ine
But in reality
You and I will never be
Cause you took your love away from me
Girl!I don't know what I did to make you leave me
But what I do know
Is that since you've been gone
There's such an emptiness inside me
I'm wishin' you would come back to me
If only you were here
You'd wash away my tear
The sun would shine and once again
You'd me mine oh mi-ine
But in reality
You and I will never be
Cause you took your love away from me,
ah babyYou took your love away from me
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I know i have lost you, i don't want it to end.I never wanted it to end.I love you . I really do. What am i going to do to my life now? You like someone else, just because i don't have time to be with you.I know i am never a boyfriend. I worked too much. But all i really want is you by my side.You, you and only you.The hurt you had caused is
insurmountable.Try a few thousand knifes flying through your heart.My life is in a mess. I don't know what to do now. I need you!! ='(
Friends ,
I'm sorry.
I'm in no mood to do anything now.Leave your
num in my
tagboard. I destroyed my phone.Need
num again.
I'm falling faster and deeper then ever before.......
help! lolx
Hmm.. i think i seriously need a few days off to recharged my battery.Been so tired lately.I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!!
AND i mean , break from working , not break from enjoying myself and drinking.Know what it is like being in heaven?I forgot the feeling to it also.lolx
My good friend went overseas, now working a bit bored.Then alot of people quit.Lolx.Guess the toughest survive.My boss treating me better.Always got free liqueur to drink.By bottles somemore.Life..how do i describe it?It's round?Just like the earth?It has it's ups and downs, but somehow , we are the ones that are going to make it right.
its time
HELLO!!! I'm back!! It's been a long long time.. so busy till no time to blog..life's the same, no difference.Why don't i sum it up in a poem for you guys?
I'm daddy's little boy,
I'm daddy's little soldier.
Even though I don't show it,
I'm always getting older.
Id love to stay little,
I'd love to stay small.
but I have to much responsibility,
I can't just slip and fall
I'm eighteen years old now,
but I act as if I were thirty.
I do this only,
to hide my pain and hurting.
I dream of a fantasy life,
I know I cant live.
I'm gonna have to work for what i get,
and in return I'm going to give.
I'm a soldier,
hiding it all.
the heart of a soldier,
who WONT let myself fall!
Well, yap , thats kinda sums it up.It's not all negative you see.There are positive in it too.
So cheers!! =)
LOVES!
Life life...
Dear God,
I was wondering , why did you brought to this earth and let me suffer? Not only me , there are countless people out there who are in worse or same state as me. Do you really know what we are going through?Or you just can't be bothered?Tell me what to do next in my life . Maybe we are just some pawn for you to play with , or are some of us "experiment gone wrong ? ". Teach me to live life with courage, teach me to be strong.And, please don't leave us wondering about alone.It's not an easy journey.
Yours truly ,
Gerald
