Did not go school today , don't feel like going . Guess i left Yuan Jie alone again . Sorry man . Went gym . Push myself . Feel the strain physically , lessen my pain emotionally . Glad to see my abs . It's getting better each day . Chest too . They really compliment each other well . Will be pushing myself again after school . The sky's the limit . Till the day my muscle strain , snap , i will keep doing it . At least it lets me feel better for a moment . Life for me now just keeps going in cycles . It's school , basketball , gym , work and home . I know , it's meaningless . I have lost my meaning of life anyway . Did a test . Guess the result ?
| Your Depression Level: 88% |
You seem to be severely depressed.
You should seek immediate attention from your physician.
Depression can be cured - you just need to take the first step. |
Guess I'm very depressed judging from the result . The 12% that went away , it's all thanks to gym and basketball . At least I'm not at the perfect score yet . Yuan jie and company , i really want to thank you guys for being there for me . No words to describe , But thanks a million . There's only so much you guys can do , let me do the rest myself .
Quote of the day
" When the going gets tough , the tough gets going. "
The lyrics for the song .
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I coudn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrended just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there is something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me i feel like Im dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking
Vida, give me back my fantasies,
The courage that I need to live
The air that I Breathe
Carino mio, my worlds become so empty
My day's are so cold and lonely,
and each night I taste
The purest of Pain
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
That it din't hurt me when you walked away
But to tell you the truth I can't find my way
And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking
Vida, give me back my fantasies,
The courage that I need to live
The air that I Breathe
Carino mio, my worlds become so empty
My day's are so cold and lonely,
and each night I taste
The purest of Pain
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I coudn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrended just to hear your voice
Each night I taste , the purest of pain .
Gerald .
